Where our journey began

 

It's been 2 years.  

So two years ago our lives changed
massively. We saw those words pregnant, 7 times in fact. We could not believe it and had to take so many tests to be sure. It was our first donation, therefore did not expect it to take first time. But after a dream and then the cat being protective over Ben's when I gave him a hug we just knew to take a test and our dreams come true.

As you can guess Ariyah-mai's is only 7 months so I talking about the first time we became dad's, to our angel son Nico. On the 3rd June 2018. Was when we found our we were pregnant for the first time. We were so excited and nervous. But so over joyed until 4 months later that all got taken away.

For those who have not followed our jounery to fatherhood from the begining wee sadly lost our son 16 weeks into the pregnancy. This was due to a bacterial infection that caused premiture rupture of the membrane. You can go to my other blog and read all about our son and what we went through.
https://twotransdaddies.blogspot.com/?m=1&zx=3ffcb31448627d86

It was the worst pain and heartbreak any parents could experience. Ever since those words we have always been dad's, even if our first baby lives in heaven. However now he is always in our hearts and wee can celebrate his life. We get to see his spirt within our daughter everyday. As well as  having an amazing second chance to be dad's.

Two years on and we have our amazing daughter and little sister too Nico. He would be proud of her and us. We did a photo shoot to honor his memory with Ariyah so as she grows we can tell her all about her big brother who guides her. We already show her photos and talk about him. She will grow up knowing she is our miracle our rainbow. That she is not a replacement but an addition to our unquic and colourful family. With two daddies, an angel and her Along with our biological family and Our friends and LGBT+ who have become family. (don't forget all cats and the animals in the family)

Baby boy your daddies wanted you and love you so much, we miss you everyday. You are missed by many others and also in our hearts, thoughts and the spirt of you baby sister. Please guide and watch out for her. We love you x

Our photo shoot. 

(Written on 4th June 2020)